May 2010
45 posts
new apt! <3 it awesome.
moving into a new apartment. fresh start, awesome.
it amazes how many small coincidences i have everyday. i have a lot of why me, why here type things happen. it makes my life interesting but makes me question if everything is pre-determined. i know everything happens for a reason but it happens WAY too often for me to just acceptit for what it is.
really sucks that even when i want control i can’t have it. i shouldn’t give in, that, is my control. you are the biggest prick/asshole i have ever met and i want to take back all of the happiness i shared with you because of the way you treated me after everything. it’s unfair for anyone to be treated in the manor you treated me. i believe i do not deserve it. get off your high...
The Makeshift Dream: How come I end up where I... →
I’ve spent so much time trying to figure things out and trying to make my life work the way I want it to and I’ve realized sometimes it’s best to give in and take the lesson. We all know that life throws punches (or whatever you want to label your trials) and it’s all about what you learn and how…
Carl, i know this is off topic but, i’m so proud of you. You have been a best friend...
No one calls to put me to bed, no one calls to wake me up. My only friend is my reflection when i look in the mirror but, even then it’s hard to bear the sadness i hold in my eyes.Just when i think i may well up and cry i walk away and go on feeling as if im barely existing. When i feel i don’t matter to anyone i feel as if my existence is not real and thats how I go on throughout the...
e e cummings
i like my body when it is with your body. It is so quite new a thing. Muscles better and nerves more. i like your body. i like what it does, i like its hows. i like to feel the spine of your body and its bones, and the trembling -firm-smooth ness and which i will again and again and again kiss, i like kissing this and that of you, i like, slowly stroking the, shocking fuzz of your...
its been a week. i guess i am not missed and its easier for you than for me. ive learned and now im moving forward. i cannnot believe the last few months even happened.
crazy woman →
if you can pronounce correctly every word in this poem, you will be speaking English better than 90% of the native English speakers in the world. After trying the verses, a Frenchman said he’d prefer six months of hard labour to reading six lines aloud. Try them yourself. (Если вы сможете правильно произнести каждое слово в этом стихотворении, значит вы говорите по английски лучше чем 90%...
the two most influential people of the end of 2009 into 2010 are the ones that left me the fastest. Both taught me a lot, unfortunately both did not come through on what they said they would. Again i am left alone, unsettled and empty.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QvSMp7T2Kes&feature=... →
i’ve come to realize that i’ve never actually felt what being in love is. i know what it feels like to love another person but not actually be in it.. i’ve only felt that weird state of ‘purgatory’ between falling in love and being in love. le sigh.
i would very much so like to ride today but alas, tis raining:(.
c'est la guerre.
i feel as if, rather, i KNOW that a lot of people have left me in my life. Some in the physical and others in the mental. Usually all seem as fit to fight to have back or in some way try if possible to mend what has ever been broken. I have gained some clarity in the passing days which feels great. But, this specific situation i have to let go. As much as it hurts i have to do just that; mentally...
old friends
have a funny way of coming back into the picture(unintentionally) when you need them the most. great phone call to start my day<3
All For Nothing
by Neva Flores
Do you even know what you do What you throw away Giving that which should be held in grace To anyone you may The stars you hold there in your eyes See them fading fast As you lose the ground you’ve walked upon Treading on this path The ice you place there in your veins Will freeze your very soul Turn your tender heart against itself And everything it holds Do...
“My sadness earns me an extra 3 points”
– MikeTash
thank god for guy best friends, seriously.
Depressive realism is the proposition that people with depression actually have a more accurate perception of reality, specifically that they are less affected by positive illusions of illusory superiority, the illusion of control and optimism bias. The concept refers to people with borderline or moderate depression, suggesting that while normal people see things in an overly positive light...
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