jammella.

Month

August 2008

23 posts

puked.

i Cannot believe i saw that peice of shit today. i mean really, it happened like 3 weeks ago but still WHY?! and he won’t apologize and try to make up for it because he fucking sucks. i really wanted to throw up. i don’t know how i didnt EWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW

Aug 31, 2008
wow

CrlDnls (3:04:23 AM): are you alright jammellaa (3:04:27 AM): you need rest you have your whole like ahead jammellaa (3:04:31 AM): i don’t know jammellaa (3:04:36 AM): im falling apart jammellaa (3:04:40 AM): and i don’t know why jammellaa (3:04:51 AM): im sitting here crying for no reason it seems CrlDnls (3:06:30 AM):

CrlDnls (3:06:32 AM): thats no good jammellaa (3:06:36 AM): i know jammellaa (3:06:37 AM): im so sad CrlDnls (3:06:37 AM): what are you thinkign abut jammellaa (3:06:41 AM): i have no idea jammellaa (3:06:46 AM): just nothing it’s so weird carl jammellaa (3:06:53 AM): i can’t even describe it jammellaa (3:06:58 AM): im sitting here dripping with tears jammellaa (3:07:04 AM): and i don’t understand why jammellaa (3:07:13 AM): im just so sad jammellaa (3:07:27 AM): i feel like i did last sumemr jammellaa (3:07:29 AM): summer* jammellaa (3:07:46 AM): but now i dont know the reason why i’m like this CrlDnls (3:07:57 AM): :/ CrlDnls (3:08:03 AM): are you thinking baout anyhting in particular jammellaa (3:08:21 AM): how things never go as planned jammellaa (3:08:31 AM): and never like get my way in life sometiems it seems CrlDnls (3:08:33 AM): yeah thats a tough one CrlDnls (3:08:46 AM): :? jammellaa (3:08:50 AM): i mean like the superficial things iget my way i guess CrlDnls (3:08:50 AM): *:/ jammellaa (3:09:00 AM): but like the other stuff everything in between the lines CrlDnls (3:09:11 AM): i know what you mean jammellaa (3:09:12 AM): everything that can’t be descrribed jammellaa (3:09:40 AM): the feelings you have that only you can describe to yourself jammellaa (3:09:45 AM): and on top of it jammellaa (3:09:58 AM): i always feel like my feelings are worth being upset over jammellaa (3:10:04 AM): that theres no need to complain CrlDnls (3:12:37 AM): they arent worth it? jammellaa (3:12:53 AM): yeah CrlDnls (3:12:58 AM): is thai know what you mean jammellaa (3:13:02 AM): because i think subconciously jammellaa (3:13:09 AM): that i should let people vent to me jammellaa (3:13:21 AM): and come to me advice and they usually never listen to me so that CrlDnls (3:13:34 AM): you know how your mom is kind of strict? CrlDnls (3:13:37 AM): and my mom is too jammellaa (3:13:44 AM): i shouldn’t have the time of day to like be listened too jammellaa (3:13:45 AM): but yes jammellaa (3:13:50 AM): our moms mhhm CrlDnls (3:13:52 AM): i i think CrlDnls (3:14:03 AM): that it has a lot to do with how we percieve certain things CrlDnls (3:14:06 AM): like our own feelings CrlDnls (3:14:11 AM): cause all i want to do is give CrlDnls (3:14:15 AM): and help people CrlDnls (3:14:20 AM): regardless of my shittiness CrlDnls (3:14:29 AM): and i feel like jammellaa (3:14:33 AM): thats exactly how i feel CrlDnls (3:14:35 AM): eel like my thoughts dont matter CrlDnls (3:14:44 AM): that i just have to suck it up jammellaa (3:14:48 AM): YES jammellaa (3:14:51 AM): WHY jammellaa (3:14:55 AM): WHY I DONT GET IT jammellaa (3:14:56 AM): WHY jammellaa (3:14:59 AM): WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY jammellaa (3:15:10 AM): i dont want to feel like this anymore jammellaa (3:15:11 AM): i dont CrlDnls (3:15:13 AM): just start thinking of yourself jammellaa (3:15:16 AM): i cant it’s too much CrlDnls (3:15:16 AM): and doing what you love CrlDnls (3:15:22 AM): its not wrong jammellaa (3:15:25 AM): but then i feel like im being selfish CrlDnls (3:15:26 AM): you deserve to be happy CrlDnls (3:15:29 AM): no t at all CrlDnls (3:15:35 AM): i felt that way for so long jammellaa (3:15:48 AM): its so terrible jammellaa (3:15:58 AM): but what you just said makes so much sense jammellaa (3:16:00 AM): really. CrlDnls (3:16:16 AM): yeah CrlDnls (3:16:20 AM): its what i realized CrlDnls (3:16:22 AM): form not beign at home CrlDnls (3:16:24 AM): i feel so free CrlDnls (3:16:26 AM): and like CrlDnls (3:16:33 AM): i can live for myseflf it seems CrlDnls (3:16:35 AM): and ont my mom CrlDnls (3:16:37 AM): *not CrlDnls (3:16:39 AM): or anyone CrlDnls (3:16:44 AM): like its not selfish CrlDnls (3:16:46 AM): its your life CrlDnls (3:17:06 AM): i look at it this way CrlDnls (3:17:08 AM): i was born alone CrlDnls (3:17:11 AM): and im gonna die that way CrlDnls (3:17:20 AM): brash CrlDnls (3:17:24 AM): *kinda brash* CrlDnls (3:17:27 AM): but CrlDnls (3:17:33 AM): it keeps me focused CrlDnls (3:17:37 AM): and helps me make decisons jammellaa (3:18:25 AM): thats what i needed this summer to just get away jammellaa (3:18:32 AM): from everything CrlDnls (3:18:34 AM): yeah jammellaa (3:18:38 AM): ahh thanks for like listening to me CrlDnls (3:18:42 AM): its hard to find an escape jammellaa (3:18:44 AM): and knowing what i am ssaying CrlDnls (3:18:45 AM): of course CrlDnls (3:18:53 AM): thats what friends are for CrlDnls (3:18:59 AM): and i know what youre going through to some extent jammellaa (3:19:30 AM): mhhm

Aug 30, 2008
Aug 30, 2008
“ickyy thump (12:42:46 AM): if i could grow a penis and please you, i so would.” —
Aug 30, 2008
i'm trying.

really hard to get over you but the fact of the matter is that if you continue to talk to me about the situation the way you do, i’m going to fucking die or something. it like doesn’t make me feel any better about the situation. i don’t know how you don’t know this. i hope for the best at all times for everyone, especially for her but like you NEED TO STOP.

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“let me live your life with you, it seems wonderful.” —
Aug 26, 2008
i don't know why

i have an attitude? i guess, it’s just easier to like not? ugh  i make myself stressed and i don’t try. what the hell is wrong with me.

Aug 26, 2008
nyc.

gone gone new york city, where ya gunna go with a face that pretty.

the city ruled. car accident in new joisey,uht ohh.

“hey guys the B only runs on weekdays”

Aug 24, 2008
never say anything

Take apart your head (and I wish I could inspire)

Take apart your demons, then you add it to the list.(goodbye my love)

Bring you back but you’re running (goodbye my love)

I’ll find sleep in the end tonight (goodbye my love)

I can’t shake this tiny feeling (goodbye my love)

I’ll never say anything right I’m on my own,I’ll never say anything right I’m on my own,I’ll never say anything right I’m on my own,I’ll never say anything right I’m on my own,I’ll never say anything right I’m on my own,I’ll never say anything right I’m on my own,I’ll never say anything right I’m on my own,I’ll never say anything right I’m on my own,I’ll never say anything right I’m on my own,I’ll never say anything right I’m on my own,I’ll never say anything right I’m on my own,I’ll never say anything right I’m on my own,I’ll never say anything right I’m on my own,I’ll never say anything right I’m on my own,I’ll never say anything right I’m on my own,I’ll never say anything right I’m on my own,I’ll never say anything right I’m on my own,I’ll never say anything right I’m on my own,I’ll never say anything right I’m on my own,I’ll never say anything right I’m on my own,I’ll never say anything right I’m on my own,I’ll never say anything right I’m on my own,I’ll never say anything right I’m on my own,I’ll never say anything right I’m on my own,I’ll never say anything right I’m on my own,I’ll never say anything right I’m on my own,I’ll never say anything right I’m on my own,I’ll never say anything right I’m on my own,I’ll never say anything right I’m on my own,

Aug 22, 2008
opposites attract

i am the revolution. i am the time keeper. i am what is real and what is fake. i am what you don’t know. i have everything you once had and the things you will never get back. i am all the thoughts you have but never speak. i am the one who holds you closest but keeps you the farthest. i will give you my body but not my mind. i am the enigma that haunts your dreams. i have been picked apart and ripped at the seams. i am the dullest of colors and the heaviest of neutrals. i do not make much sense to myself. you probably think you’ve figured me out along with my motives, but you and me are not alike. yet, somehow we are the same. i am the selfish one. i am the greedy one. i do not want you inside of my head these are just the woes of my battle. the contradictory battle i started fighting the moment i arrived and the battle i will die fighting the second i leave.i am the walking contradiction your life has become. i am the mirror image you see, backwards.

Aug 21, 2008
Play
Aug 21, 2008
thanks for everything.
  • kid "whats your name again?"
  • man "jesus, i will be your lord and savior for this evening."
  • kid "no, whats your real name?"
  • man "Christ."
Aug 21, 2008
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